cherrybatteringrams said: I just found your blog, and wanted to let you know that you're amazing and doing a killer job! I've yo-yo'd between 200 and 230 for the last couple years, and I'm finally deciding to get my shit together and do it properly, so painful getting so close to under 200 only to fall off the wagon again haha. I love your attitude, and I'm hoping that some of it will rub off on me.
Thanks darling! I’ve also been slipping because I am trying to break from tracking everything I eat (and hopefully won’t have to battle alcoholism).
Enjoy your body as much as possible at any size and feel grateful you’ve experienced some kinds of happiness and sadness others haven’t been able to experience and probably won’t ever, to the degree that we have. It’s a weird and bittersweet gratefulness that is similar to how I feel about my bipolar disorder.
Sure, I want to keep losing. But I also want to appreciate my body at every stage. Buy the best vibrators and body products that you can afford and that self love can morph, maybe, into motivation to love yourself even more — in whichever way you deem best, whether it’s losing weight or loving your body at about two bucks like I do.
1:20 pm |
September 28 2014
Anonymous said: My girlfriends tits are ugly from weightloss what exercises can she do?
What the fuck do you think is gunna happen when you lose weight from your chest.. they’re going to magically turn into perky rainbow titties?? Instead of coming to me for exercises you should exit her life she don’t need no man calling her tits ugly. You should be asking me how to fix that stank personality.
7:03 pm |
September 19 2014
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And now I feel like I’m gonna cry. My insurance approved my panniculectomy, and the other cosmetic surgeries (arm lift, muscle tightening, mons lipo) total to a very reasonable price.
It happens January 12, 2015.
2:39 pm |
September 18 2014
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It’s going to happen.
I had my plastic surgery consult today for a panniculectomy with abdominal tightening and mons liposuction, and also for a brachioplasty.
While I’ve been struggling with my relationship with food lately, I feel a lot better knowing that this surgeon is totally on board with all this. He assuaged my doubts and fears, especially regarding the cost. I can stop panicking and hopefully establish a better relationship with food now that I know the weight I’ve maintained is A-OK.
Guys, I’m getting my loose skin removed! I’m on the verge of tears.
This blog will chronicle that as well. The skin, and, well, the tears too.
6:46 pm |
September 10 2014
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some chill positivity from a 1998 Sesame Street book about the letter F
7:43 pm |
August 22 2014
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literatilust said: Asking for the pw to the loose skin blog. OMG you are amazing and SO inspiring! I wish you the very best!!
might as well answer this publicly since I keep forgetting the password. it’s wickedloose, I think?
1:27 pm |
June 16 2014
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men are just hilarious.
masculinity is the most fragile thing in the entire world
why we need feminism and fat feminists too
10:32 am |
June 12 2014
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sailormoonlover123 said: Hello! I just wanted to say that your blog is absolutely amazing. It is such an inspiration! I've started my weight loss journey a little while ago and its nice to know that there's someone else. I did have a question. How soon did you notice changes in yourself? I've lost some weight according to the scale but I can't see it when I look at myself in the mirror. My friends and family mention that I look thinner. I just get kinda sad that I may not have lost anything and its a figment.
Thanks so much and congratulations on starting! It’s a long, tough road, and this is some tough love: if you don’t learn to love yourself at any size, you won’t ever meet your goals, appearance-wise. It took me a long time to realize that.
For some realness, also, I didn’t notice until I was around 260 lbs down from around 320, your mileage may vary. I remember looking at photos of myself at 40 lbs lost and I was like, I can’t tell at all! But my family and friends did. Still didn’t believe them.
If anyone tells you self-love is easy to learn, they’re wrong. It’s as much of a journey as weight loss. I used to obsess over numbers and regaining anything sent me spiraling into feelings of hopelessness.
I guess what I’m trynna say is: great job starting, learning to love yourself is difficult, but it is rewarding and when. You yourself start noticing changes you’ll be even more elated. I never make promises, but I can almost promise you that. I wish you the best, and don’t hesitate to reach out again if you wanna talk privately.
6:19 pm |
June 9 2014
OK SO RUNNING
Wow, OK. Running is much different than lifting weights and I hate it but I guess it’s also OK. I’m not really sure but jogging for three minutes straight was so terrible! I’m on W3D1 of C25K and man oh man.
Also, this guy at the Reservoir (around which I run) gave me a thumbs-up. Twice. While I was walking, not running. I’m not used to not being wicked awesome at stuff and honestly it made me feel self-conscious. At least with lifting I could prove I was strong, but there’s little to compare with running besides speed. And I’m not fast, and I feel dumb.
This whole thing is awkward but me and the fiancé are doing it together so it’s less weird.
I’ve also gotten waves. I wanna be like, “I’m a fat runner, yeah, but I used to be over 100 lbs heavier! I used to be able to deadlift two of you!” but I can’t because a) I’m out of breath and b) I’m much more charismatic than that.
Do any of y’all who are overweight runners feel patronized or am I being super weird?
4:06 pm |
June 9 2014
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first side stitches ever aaaaa. also ran sometimes during the walking part so that’s why the miles look weird! 👏👌
3:03 pm |
June 6 2014
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championsaremade said: Love your blog, you are gorge, and your progress is amazing :)
Thank you so much dear!
1:15 pm |
May 27 2014